quo vadis?

where to indeed?

i feel like standing with one foot pressed to the ground and the other one poised for flight. i am thinking, recalling what experiences enriched my life this year. Socrates once said that the unexamined life is not worth living. So here I am, with his words echoing in my mind, stopping for a brief moment of nostalgia before moving forward.

2007 is a pivotal year for me. All my life I've been held back by inane fears to take even small risks. I don't regret what I lost by such cowardice though. But I cant help but think about the what ifs.

This year I imposed a TRO on my plan to become a lawyer in 2011. I realized how much my family needed me. So I embarked on this journey to come to Dubai to work. I resigned from the bank where I work during the days and took off with only 40 dollars in my pocket. The greatest miracle was not surviving. It was having conquered my fears of leaving the country and being subject to misfortune in a foreign land. The Lord is so kind to me. And I praise him for helping me overcome my fears.

Fast forward to december 2007, Im earning 5x what i earned in the homeland. I m sending 3 college kids to school. Im helping the family budget. I bought a laptop. I paid my passage in full. I have a new phone. I have some money in the bank. I've been to places I've never dreamed of going. Im enjoying my life and my friends. I have a atrong relaitonship with my beau. I am so blessed. I feel quite complete. The Lord has rewarded me. And I am eternally grateful.

2008.

hmmmm. save, save, save and acquire? this needs another blog entry..let me think.